Thursday, April 11, 2013

Breast feeding...

Whoever said breast feeding was easy, lied big time! It's hard, exhausting and stressful but at the same time is easy, magical and a blessing! Breast feeding is by far the hardest thing I have ever done. Anyone who knows me knows I like sleep. When you're pregnant no one ever tells you there will be several (as in more than one) night your baby will want you an only you and along with that will want to eat ALL night long. They also don't tell you that you will question yourself a billion times if your baby is getting enough or if you're doing it right. They don't tell you that when daddy is holding the baby and you're making dinner that baby may scream the entire time no matter what daddy does because well only mommy has the food. They just don't tell you those things. They don't want to scare you away. I get it.

They don't always tell you the magical moments either like when your baby looks up and smiles 100% satisfied look on his face and you'll feel like a million bucks because your baby is happy with mommy's milk, his mommy's milk. It's easy because its there. No getting up in the middle of the night to warm a bottle, no buying formula that's easily $25 for a weeks worth (if that), and no icky formula smell. If you've never smelled a baby that's just had breast milk and then smelled a baby that had formula you'll see what I'm saying. It's so different. It's a blessing because I know that I'm providing my little one with the best possible nutrition that is made just for him and that whether our breast feeding journey ends next month or two years from now when he's ready to wean I know that the memories and bonding we having will last for the rest of my life and I've instilled a sense of trust and security in my baby.

To each their own whether formula or breast. I don't want to be judged for nursing in public just like I wouldn't judge another for giving their baby a bottle. Food is food. It's a hot topic lately and I never realized it before. I personally don't ever remember being around anyone breast feeding so bottles were the norm and I'm sure that's true for many people and its very unfortunate. Breast feeding is 100% natural and shouldn't have to be explained it should be expected and embraced.

Here's a pic of my little one latching on for the first time. Melts my heart. I have a video as well with the little precious sounds he made when he was eating.

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

"Is it healed yet??"

I say this several times a week, mainly on Monday, Wednesday and Friday when I go to the wound clinic for the dreaded wound vac dressing change, and when I say dressing I mean packing of foam into my c-section incision. The wound clinic is wonderful, they ooo and awe over my beautiful baby boy and say how amazing my husband is to take off work to take me to the appointments (praise God for FMLA) and for taking care of him while we are there but I am rather sick of seeing them! I never imagined when we were discharged from the hospital the first time (yes there was more than one, three to be exact) that I would be spending my entire maternity leave carrying around a wound vac rather than just my baby. I guess I never imagined going in for the second surgery either or how much more pain I would feel afterwards, considering I didn't feel much pain the week following his birth. Guess that's just how it is when things don't go as planned but the tears were shed by everyone involved and I had my moments where I lost it because it wasn't how we imagined it to be.

Back to the wound vac, I've had it for five weeks and tomorrow is the big day or well I hope it is where they say they don't have to put it back on! Was hoping to have lost it before Easter but that didn't happens so maybe this is the week!

Sunday, March 31, 2013

Huge changes

It's been almost a year since I've posted anything, guess life got in the way and its been a wonderful journey!

In late June we found out that we were 8 weeks pregnant! I can't even describe the moment we seen the little heart beating on the screen! My husband and I were filled with every emotion. Our life would forever be changed!

Fast forward 12 weeks... We found out we were having a BOY!

The pregnancy was pretty easy and simple besides always measuring a little bit ahead of schedule. There was a little morning sickness all the way through but only once or twice a week so I couldn't complain.

Fast forward to February 16, 2013 to his birthday! It's been a wonderful adventure bringing this wonderful little boy into this world. He looks just like his daddy!

Friday, April 13, 2012


I work three days a week now, or well that's what I like to tell myself. I changed my schedule at the beginning of this month to just three days but maintianing the 40 hour work week.... Or 56 hr work week as it turned out to be last week. I changed my schedule to be home more with my husband, to be the supportive wife he needs me to be, to have dinner waiting on him, laundry done and apartment cleaned so he can focus on just being home with me rather than worrying about everything we need to get done... It has been an epic failure for sure, but working hard is what I do. I love my job, just not more than I love my husband!

My work week has been full of death, training, med pass after med pass, paperwork and more paperwork, treatments, vital signs, arguement ending, tears, reminding, explaining, forcing a smile, accu checks, washing hands over and over and over again, charting, filing, cleaning, and very little sleep. 16 hour days turn into 18.... Yet I still love being a nurse!

At home is puppy kisses and wishing my husband was home from work, dishes, laundry and sunshine! I love being home especially when my love is home! Especially when we are cuddled on the couch watching a movie or two! I know moments like that will eventually be far and few when we have babies but for now we are just enjoying the wonderful memories we are making together!

Everyday I am thankful for where I am, the knowledge in my head and the ability to be who I am, who I get to spend my moments with, the hands I hold when they are passing, the tears I shed, the stories I hear and the blessings I receive because I get to do what I do!

Wednesday, March 14, 2012


So it seems as tho I haven't posted since December. So here's some updates...

In January we kicked off the new year by working a lot... and it seems we haven't slowed down yet...

In February I traveled to Oregon for Sarah's wedding.  It was beautiful and perfect and I greatly enjoyed all the time with her... now if only she would move closer!

Later in February... we decided we are moving back to Ohio in November! YAY!

March! Not sure how we got here so fast! We have officially joined the wellness center, our muscles are sore but seeing results is so worth it!!!

Hope 2012 is treating you well! Much Love!

Wednesday, December 21, 2011


It has been forever since a post. A lot has been going on lately... You know with Christmas and all that entails with family and friends. Not to mention working a lot... Two days off in the past three weeks! Needless to say all I want to do is sleep, energy has decided to be absent from my life for the time being. Along with Christmas festivities we are also planning a trip to Oregon for a wedding! Small other things that I won't mention here for the risk of ruining a surprise! :)

Things I love about this time of year..
Jesus.... He's the only reason for the season!
Christmas movies on hallmark!
Cuddling on the couch watching movies with my love with the bright Christmas lights on.
Family, family and more family!
Christmas cookies!
Shopping for others!
Seeing the bright smiles of others as they open the gifts you brought!

Things I dislike...
Santa.... He's not the reason for the season!
Shopping for people you haven't seen in over a year!
The pretense that you have to buy gifts for said people.

I hope Christmastime is filled with all the things you love!

Much love!

Wednesday, November 9, 2011


Havent blogged in two months due to trying to mend relationships but I did want to share a little bit of news... We are moving!! Not too far but about forty minutes west from where we are now. We both have jobs in Indianapolis and it will be so nice to not drive an hr each way five days a week!

Hope all is well with you! Will catch up soon!

Much love!